"Each moment is a moment of choice - a time to leave the old, the limited, the restrained and the contracted for the new, the unbound and the liberating potential that expands before you." - Gary Zukav
Change is the most consistent thing we have in life, yet its also the scariest thing. Over the past few months in my life I have undergone some drastic changes. A lot happened in a short amount of time, which happens to everyone, but I wasn’t feeling good and I wanted to change it. I don’t usually just get up and pack my bags and leave for no reason as I have a lot of commitments, but this time I felt like I needed to.
I came home for one week to visit my family then unexpectedly my Dad got really sick. I stayed in the Hospital with him in the UK for 7 weeks then he passed away. Then to fly back to Dubai because all my life was there and I had work and filming, then back to the UK for the funeral in May, then back to Dubai again to move apartments and sort my life out, I felt like I was being flung around everywhere. I was also managing and consulting for a big business online which took a lot of energy. After my Dad passed away in April, I literally become a workaholic, which I am anyway but in an unhealthy way as to were I didn’t even want to socialise and got really bad anxiety when I had to be around large groups. I think my mind and body were still in a state of shock from losing my Dad. However, putting my energy into work did save me and help me appreciate life whilst I still have it and helped me turn my focus – (work and my best friend!!) but I also used it as a tool to run away. It came to a point where I just didn’t want to get up, and I knew I had to change it. No one can save you but yourself.
For some reason, for the past month, Bali kept flashing into my mind. I had no idea why. Then I just had this huge desire to go, I thought what do I really want my life to look like? I created a vision board and a week later, booked my flight and left. I didn’t even book my hotels until the day I landed. On the thought of impulse, I was like, I’m just going to move to Bali and hide away (work on my business online) and clear my mind. For one, I just felt like I couldn’t be around people at this time and 2, I had many ideas that I didn’t know how to express.
BUT…. In February I had signed up to go to an event in Dubai that I really wanted to go (Mega Speaker) to and for some reason even though I didn’t really do much research about what it was about – and actually public speaking was one of my fears, my intuition told me I needed to go, so I booked my flight to arrive the night before the event. (Thank God I went!)
So I had 2 weeks all by myself to heal, work on my business and travel.
Meditation Is Magic
For 30 Days, I underwent a challenge to meditate every day, with the lovely Lacey who I met on my travels! We created a challenge on Facebook, lots of poeple joined with us and loved it too! It really healed my body and mind.
Jiwa Bikram Yoga
Sendang Gile Waterfall
Nothing is worth it if you arn’t happy.
Your desires are sent to you for a reason, because its possible for you to have it.
Forgiveness is inevetable to move forward, forgiveness to yourself and others.
The biggest reward comes from taking action even when you don’t feel like it.
Always follow your intuition.
Self love is so important, if you don’t feel good, do anything you can do heal yourself and make yourself better.
I left Bali feeling very refreshed I also felt overwhelmed and grateful to my friends and family for their love over this time.
I really do believe that there is something magical within the Universe that helps us when we really want to do something. For example, when I was in Bali, I traveled outside of it and ended up in Lombock, just within a 5 second decision to go that took 6 hours to travel to and ended up in the same Waterfall that was on my vision board. I had no plan to go there, I just wanted to see a Waterfall and I ended up at the exact same one, by accident. Isn’t that crazy?!
Lately has really hit me that we do not know how long we have on earth, I am more determined than ever. On the flight home, it was a night flight and I stayed awake working on my book. I got home at 6am the next day and started to get ready to go to Mega Speaker, I wasn’t really sure what it was I just thought it was a networking event, so I nearly just left it. But I did book my flight back from Bali specifically for this, so I got ready to go. I’m so glad I went because all of the information and research I needed to know came to me from this event. Coincidences are crazy!
Mega Speaker Dubai June 2017